I heard this video presentation at some point in the last year. I heard it again today. It's about 20 minutes long, fairly sociological, but well worth listening to, especially if you struggle with trying to be perfect or accepting imperfection. Rather than focus on that (while I think it's worth focusing on), I want to focus on the last few minutes of Brene Brown's presentation from June 2010.
I would encourage you to watch the entire video, then go back and start at the time mark 17:58.
This speaker talks about speaking to our children as though they are worthy of love and belonging in spite of and in the face of imperfection and disappointment. She says that if we show a generation of children and young people that they are worthy of love and belonging simply because they are, simply because they exist, then the issues and problems of identity and the impossible pursuit of perfection will no longer plague our children and eventually our society and culture.
I want to point this part of her talk out for two reasons.
First, I work with children, youth, and young people. I want to tell them that they belong to Jesus, that they are loved for who they are as imperfect beings. I want to tell their parents to be vulnerable in front of their kids, to live into the reality that adults don't have everything figured out, that sometimes adults fail, and it is only by love, compassion, and courage can they/we/I move forward.
Second, I am one of those children who is and was celebrated in spite of my perceived shortcomings, my failures, and my imperfections.
My mom blogs. Often. And beautifully. She has this incredible way of telling stories through her words, pictures, and descriptions that I absolutely love. I'm proud of her. Each Tuesday, she has a "Tuesday at the Table" entry that I'm especially drawn to. If you know me or my family, you know tables and what happens around tables is super important to us. Today Mom wrote about her mom, my Grandma, our family's Matriarch, who taught my mom how to cook.
Okay, passing on recipes and techniques is great. Delicious. What is more important that the surface foodie stuff is that Grandma told her children (and grandchildren and great-grandchildren) that they have worth, that they belong, and that they are loved.
My Grandma and my mom showed me that I am worth breaking bread with, baking cookies with, and passing on recipes to.
My Grandma and my mom showed me that I belong with them, to them, and they to me. I may be states away, but I know I will forever have a seat at their table.
My Grandma and my mom showed me that I am loved. Through food, through hugs, through phone calls, through Facebook, through text messages, through the simple knowledge that I am being prayed for. I am L-O-V-E...LOVE-d!
You might not get that last joke. It's a family thing. Last week I wrote a eulogy for my Papa. Today I want to say thank you and Happy Birthday to my Grandma!
As a young man living essentially on his own states away from his hometown, I often find it hard to be vulnerable. One of the beautiful things about the blog-o-sphere is that I can be vulnerable here and there ain't nothin' you can do about it.
It's late and I have a busy day tomorrow. But know this: invest in the people around you, show them they are worth loving and be okay with their imperfections as much as possible, and they will respond. Being vulnerable, existing alongside imperfection, and loving in spite of failure is hard work. But it's what my mom and my Grandma do and did, and it's the way of Life that I choose.
Happy Birthday Grandma. I love you.
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Walking Miracles: I Know a Guy
I once knew a guy that was a walking miracle.
As a child and a youth in SoCal., he worked to help his family survive.
As a young adult, he was an enlisted man, though thankfully without the bullet holes to prove it.
As a man he was married, had children. Relationships that never were supposed to be painful were poison.
He survived his first marriage, though not without brokenness.
As a grown man, he married again, now to a woman who herself knows pain and struggle deeply and intimately.
As he was pushing towards retirement age, he was family--not by blood but by love.
As an elder, he was a leader and a mentor, a father and a grandfather and a great-grandfather, a faithful husband and a friend.
As an old man, he was sick and diagnosed. Cancer of more than one kind; illness that would not leave him be.
As a dying man, he was prayerful and loving. He was hopeful and positive.
And as far as I'm aware, the last words he spoke were words of love for his wife. That is a miracle.
This is the first time I've written down a eulogy for my grandfather, my Papa. He walked through the Pearly Gates 282 days ago today. I'm sure he was smiling, teasing St. Peter and joking with the saints that have gone before as we walked into Heaven.
Yes, Death overtook his life. But the last thing he ever said to me was this: "I'll see you at Easter. I love you." I took that to mean Easter Sunday 2011. He meant it at that, but as much more too. Easter isn't just a day every calendar year for Christians. It is a hope and a promise of Life. Death ended Papa's life, but can never destroy his Life. That is the promise of Christ Jesus.
I once heard miracles described as little bits of Heaven breaking into the world. Faithful prayer doesn't always lead to the miracles we want or expect. But we can see snippets and glimpses of the Kingdom of God in the miracles that do happen. I'm choosing to see a life well lived and a Life worth living as miraculous.
You want a walking miracle? Let me tell you about my Papa. He was a walking miracle his whole life through. And that's a fact.
As a child and a youth in SoCal., he worked to help his family survive.
As a young adult, he was an enlisted man, though thankfully without the bullet holes to prove it.
As a man he was married, had children. Relationships that never were supposed to be painful were poison.
He survived his first marriage, though not without brokenness.
As a grown man, he married again, now to a woman who herself knows pain and struggle deeply and intimately.
As he was pushing towards retirement age, he was family--not by blood but by love.
As an elder, he was a leader and a mentor, a father and a grandfather and a great-grandfather, a faithful husband and a friend.
As an old man, he was sick and diagnosed. Cancer of more than one kind; illness that would not leave him be.
As a dying man, he was prayerful and loving. He was hopeful and positive.
And as far as I'm aware, the last words he spoke were words of love for his wife. That is a miracle.
This is the first time I've written down a eulogy for my grandfather, my Papa. He walked through the Pearly Gates 282 days ago today. I'm sure he was smiling, teasing St. Peter and joking with the saints that have gone before as we walked into Heaven.
Yes, Death overtook his life. But the last thing he ever said to me was this: "I'll see you at Easter. I love you." I took that to mean Easter Sunday 2011. He meant it at that, but as much more too. Easter isn't just a day every calendar year for Christians. It is a hope and a promise of Life. Death ended Papa's life, but can never destroy his Life. That is the promise of Christ Jesus.
I once heard miracles described as little bits of Heaven breaking into the world. Faithful prayer doesn't always lead to the miracles we want or expect. But we can see snippets and glimpses of the Kingdom of God in the miracles that do happen. I'm choosing to see a life well lived and a Life worth living as miraculous.
You want a walking miracle? Let me tell you about my Papa. He was a walking miracle his whole life through. And that's a fact.
Friday, November 18, 2011
WARNING: the holidays are about to hurt...
My roommate is studying to be a Lutheran pastor. He and I talk theology, ministry, ecclesiology, eschatology, and groceries all the time. There have been a couple times that he and I have been hashing over a sermon or paper he's working on and I say something brilliant (well, duh!) and it helps Roommate in his thought process and/or theological bend to his message. (Tangent: a couple nights ago we were switching back and forth between debating Martin Luther's two kingdom theology (1520's) and playing Star Wars (1977) trivia, so not all of our conversations are necessarily biblical or theological.) After that first sermon success, Roommate somewhat jokingly said that I should be preaching in Roommate's place. I told him to be the Aaron to my Moses (Exodus 4:10-17); that is a great Bible joke, by the way.
(Tangent: another great Bible joke is to ask how many of each animal Moses took with him on the Ark...)
(Okay, it's not a great joke, but it is a Bible joke!)
This morning Roommate was telling me about the sermon he's going to be preaching this Sunday, just a few days before Thanksgiving, on the text of Jesus' healing of the ten lepers (Luke 17:11-19). We bantered back and forth over omelets and coffee for a little while. He got to the point where he wanted to make a point that as college kids return home to their parents, while family members from distances away gather for a meal (and leftovers!), and while people take time away from the hustle and bustle of daily like to reflect and give thanks, they are like the one leper who turned back to Jesus and praised his for the miracle of healing that had occurred.
That's a lovely sermon and one fitting for Thanksgiving week. But I think it's too one dimensional.
This week one of Roommate's and my classmates suffered a tragic loss in his family. A young driver hit a bicyclist, and the biker was killed; he was our classmate's uncle. This sudden and tragic loss of life is painful for all involved, from the family to the kid driver, from the pedestrians to the medics, from the coroner to the family pastor.
I turned to Roommate this morning and asked how he would preach this sermon to this family, to our friend. How do you preach a sermon of Thanksgiving, of faithfulness, of joy, and of healing to the family or person engulfed in pain and loss? How do you speak a word of Life into a world of Death?!
How do I, as a person called into full-time ministry with young people and their families, celebrate with one kid who got a full-ride into the college of their choice while being present with a kid who was suspended from his school after fighting back against a constant and ruthless bully?
I don't have an answer. I have a couple ideas, but no firm answer. I could read Matthew 9:12-13 where Jesus says he came to call the sinners, not the righteous; the sick, not the healthy. I could give the college bound kid what he wants: personal attention, recognition, and deserved applause. I could take both the college bound and the suspended out to breakfast.
This Thanksgiving, I will not be with my family. They will be missing two men this year. On a calendar, April seems so long ago, but in my heart April is still an open wound. I'm spending Thanksgiving day with Roommate, his soon-to-be wife, her family, and other friends of ours from school. But I know in spite of the dark meat of the turkey, the mashed sweet potatoes, and the pumpkin pie, I'll be missing my family. Most of them I'll see at Christmas, sure, but more of them I won't see until Kingdom Come.
Roommate is going to preach a sermon of thanksgiving in a time of Thanksgiving. It will mean something to those who give thanks for the abundance in their lives. It may mean more to those who need to be at church, those hurting, mourning, and at a loss. I count myself as living with abundance--but that doesn't mean that this Thanksgiving (or this Christmas, or next January, or next February, or next April) I won't feel a deep and painful sense of loss. I will cry when the holidays hit full force. Geez, I cry when I see pictures of my niece's first birthday party. But I [will] give thanks for the family I have, for the family I've had, and for the promise of God that death is not the end, but just a major bump on the road to Life Everlasting.
I might not call my loved ones as often as I think of them. (And the funny part is, so far my family are the only people reading this blog!) I'll bet they don't call me as often as they think of me. In spite of all that, we know we love each other. Family, friends that are family, and loved ones: I give thanks for you. I won't be there to whisk the gravy, to eat yet another slice of pie, or to play with a certain baby girl, but know that I love you all.
It all comes back. Life out of Death, that's what God in Christ Jesus through the Holy Spirit is up to in my life, in our lives, and in the life of the world. That's the promise I hope in, and I can do nothing else.
Here's to L-O-V-E (!) now and forevermore.
Peace be with you. Amen.
(Tangent: another great Bible joke is to ask how many of each animal Moses took with him on the Ark...)
(Okay, it's not a great joke, but it is a Bible joke!)
This morning Roommate was telling me about the sermon he's going to be preaching this Sunday, just a few days before Thanksgiving, on the text of Jesus' healing of the ten lepers (Luke 17:11-19). We bantered back and forth over omelets and coffee for a little while. He got to the point where he wanted to make a point that as college kids return home to their parents, while family members from distances away gather for a meal (and leftovers!), and while people take time away from the hustle and bustle of daily like to reflect and give thanks, they are like the one leper who turned back to Jesus and praised his for the miracle of healing that had occurred.
That's a lovely sermon and one fitting for Thanksgiving week. But I think it's too one dimensional.
This week one of Roommate's and my classmates suffered a tragic loss in his family. A young driver hit a bicyclist, and the biker was killed; he was our classmate's uncle. This sudden and tragic loss of life is painful for all involved, from the family to the kid driver, from the pedestrians to the medics, from the coroner to the family pastor.
I turned to Roommate this morning and asked how he would preach this sermon to this family, to our friend. How do you preach a sermon of Thanksgiving, of faithfulness, of joy, and of healing to the family or person engulfed in pain and loss? How do you speak a word of Life into a world of Death?!
How do I, as a person called into full-time ministry with young people and their families, celebrate with one kid who got a full-ride into the college of their choice while being present with a kid who was suspended from his school after fighting back against a constant and ruthless bully?
I don't have an answer. I have a couple ideas, but no firm answer. I could read Matthew 9:12-13 where Jesus says he came to call the sinners, not the righteous; the sick, not the healthy. I could give the college bound kid what he wants: personal attention, recognition, and deserved applause. I could take both the college bound and the suspended out to breakfast.
This Thanksgiving, I will not be with my family. They will be missing two men this year. On a calendar, April seems so long ago, but in my heart April is still an open wound. I'm spending Thanksgiving day with Roommate, his soon-to-be wife, her family, and other friends of ours from school. But I know in spite of the dark meat of the turkey, the mashed sweet potatoes, and the pumpkin pie, I'll be missing my family. Most of them I'll see at Christmas, sure, but more of them I won't see until Kingdom Come.
Roommate is going to preach a sermon of thanksgiving in a time of Thanksgiving. It will mean something to those who give thanks for the abundance in their lives. It may mean more to those who need to be at church, those hurting, mourning, and at a loss. I count myself as living with abundance--but that doesn't mean that this Thanksgiving (or this Christmas, or next January, or next February, or next April) I won't feel a deep and painful sense of loss. I will cry when the holidays hit full force. Geez, I cry when I see pictures of my niece's first birthday party. But I [will] give thanks for the family I have, for the family I've had, and for the promise of God that death is not the end, but just a major bump on the road to Life Everlasting.
I might not call my loved ones as often as I think of them. (And the funny part is, so far my family are the only people reading this blog!) I'll bet they don't call me as often as they think of me. In spite of all that, we know we love each other. Family, friends that are family, and loved ones: I give thanks for you. I won't be there to whisk the gravy, to eat yet another slice of pie, or to play with a certain baby girl, but know that I love you all.
It all comes back. Life out of Death, that's what God in Christ Jesus through the Holy Spirit is up to in my life, in our lives, and in the life of the world. That's the promise I hope in, and I can do nothing else.
Here's to L-O-V-E (!) now and forevermore.
Peace be with you. Amen.
Monday, October 31, 2011
Zombie: to be or not to be, that is the question...
I really don't like Halloween. I don't like being scared on purpose--enough in life scares me as is. It's Halloween and I can really only think of two things today. One, I don't have any candy if trick-or-treaters stop by my door tonight. Two, Zombies.
Zombies. I fear I have become one. Or at least begun actively participating in a Zombie Institution. (This term, Zombie Institution, I've picked up from one of my seminary professors. His article can be found here.) Essentially, AR (my former prof) is saying that we (as people, as the church, as Americans) have moved away from needing authentic community to just consuming and being consumed by institutions that have no real connection to our individual needs, identities, or relationships. In fact, these institutions have become more scary and death-dealing--hence the Zombie comparison.
One of the most defining characteristics of Zombie Institutions is that they provide community of a shallow and temporary sort; this has replaced the authentic community that is more life-giving and attentive to our real needs. As AR points out, the 'secret ingredient' of authentic non-Zombie communities is obligation.
Obligation, I feel, has become a somewhat scary and almost dirty word around most people my age-ish. We want to be completely independent, we want to deserve what we get, and we can do it all without someone else's help. But what does it mean for us to be obligated to the people around us, to "Love your neighbor as yourself", to care for others and allow yourself to be cared for. Obligation is risky business.
I fear I have become Zombie-fied. Partly me, partly the communities/institutions I am involved with, partly how the world works around me. I work in a church. We try to be as life-giving as possible. Personally, I try to be on the lookout for signals and symptoms of kids and families that have been bitten too many times by Zombies and are in need of authenticity, affirmation of their humanity, and acceptance of their person-hood. It looks good on paper (like the Mariners' starting pitching rotation), but I fear I'm too much of a Zombie to break through my own fear and Zombie-ness and act out of obligation for my neighbor.
This weekend I will be leading a retreat with junior high students talking about faith, values, and choices around the topic of sex. I'm not looking forward to it. I'd rather talk about faith, values, and choices around the topic of love. Then I could talk about obligation to your neighbor, authentic relationship, love as action, love as commitment, love as vocation, sex as a small aspect of romantic (and hopefully devoted) love, and how so many people have become like Zombies. I'd rather talk about relationships as a whole, rather than sex as a small but important bit of a healthy, dedicated, and loving relationship between two mature and self-aware individuals.
If anyone has ever told you that working with youth and young people is easy, don't believe them. They probably lack the obligation, the vision, and the deep seeded fear that is necessary for being authentic and loving to and for youth. And then there's the whole mission and ministry of young people. Youth ministry isn't easy; there are days where the simplicity of the kitchen beckons. Even for how touch this stuff is, I wouldn't trade it for the world.
I've felt glimmers and seen glimpses of obligation, of authentic relationships that transcend time and space, of true Love. And if, in fact, I am in the middle of a Zombie (Institution) Apocalypse, I hope that I will be a part of the life-pursuing resistance, not a dead-smelling shell of a human being. Here's to not being a Zombie on Halloween.
Zombies. I fear I have become one. Or at least begun actively participating in a Zombie Institution. (This term, Zombie Institution, I've picked up from one of my seminary professors. His article can be found here.) Essentially, AR (my former prof) is saying that we (as people, as the church, as Americans) have moved away from needing authentic community to just consuming and being consumed by institutions that have no real connection to our individual needs, identities, or relationships. In fact, these institutions have become more scary and death-dealing--hence the Zombie comparison.
One of the most defining characteristics of Zombie Institutions is that they provide community of a shallow and temporary sort; this has replaced the authentic community that is more life-giving and attentive to our real needs. As AR points out, the 'secret ingredient' of authentic non-Zombie communities is obligation.
Obligation, I feel, has become a somewhat scary and almost dirty word around most people my age-ish. We want to be completely independent, we want to deserve what we get, and we can do it all without someone else's help. But what does it mean for us to be obligated to the people around us, to "Love your neighbor as yourself", to care for others and allow yourself to be cared for. Obligation is risky business.
I fear I have become Zombie-fied. Partly me, partly the communities/institutions I am involved with, partly how the world works around me. I work in a church. We try to be as life-giving as possible. Personally, I try to be on the lookout for signals and symptoms of kids and families that have been bitten too many times by Zombies and are in need of authenticity, affirmation of their humanity, and acceptance of their person-hood. It looks good on paper (like the Mariners' starting pitching rotation), but I fear I'm too much of a Zombie to break through my own fear and Zombie-ness and act out of obligation for my neighbor.
This weekend I will be leading a retreat with junior high students talking about faith, values, and choices around the topic of sex. I'm not looking forward to it. I'd rather talk about faith, values, and choices around the topic of love. Then I could talk about obligation to your neighbor, authentic relationship, love as action, love as commitment, love as vocation, sex as a small aspect of romantic (and hopefully devoted) love, and how so many people have become like Zombies. I'd rather talk about relationships as a whole, rather than sex as a small but important bit of a healthy, dedicated, and loving relationship between two mature and self-aware individuals.
If anyone has ever told you that working with youth and young people is easy, don't believe them. They probably lack the obligation, the vision, and the deep seeded fear that is necessary for being authentic and loving to and for youth. And then there's the whole mission and ministry of young people. Youth ministry isn't easy; there are days where the simplicity of the kitchen beckons. Even for how touch this stuff is, I wouldn't trade it for the world.
I've felt glimmers and seen glimpses of obligation, of authentic relationships that transcend time and space, of true Love. And if, in fact, I am in the middle of a Zombie (Institution) Apocalypse, I hope that I will be a part of the life-pursuing resistance, not a dead-smelling shell of a human being. Here's to not being a Zombie on Halloween.
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
"Wait, your mom did what?!"
Got your attention, didn't I? (hehehe)
This weekend I was leading a group of high school students and their small group leaders on a weekend retreat at a resort camp in north-ish western Minnesota. There were something like 250 high schoolers (we were not the only group, thank goodness) and upwards of 300 people total. Well, y'know, mealtimes are shared times, so I was able to sit and eat with all the youth and adults I brought, and a few others. The meals were not your typical camp meals; they were actually house-made, not pulled out of a freezer or unloaded, ready to eat, from a huge truck. That being said, the food wasn't as good as my family's Bed and Breakfast (that's a comment into the future, you just wait), though it certainly was tasty and I heard very little complaining from a group of students that can lend themselves to be a bit complain-y.
At the Saturday evening meal, dessert was served. Each table (up to eight people per table) was gifted with a nine inch pie pan in which lay a freshly baked nine inch chocolate chip cookie, topped with a slab (literally a slab--seriously, a slab) of vanilla ice cream. Our group was spread over five tables. Let me describe each of their reactions:
Table 1: An all girl group that seemed just as interested in the opposite gender as anything else we did all weekend (though to be fair, they really did ask and engage in some tough Jesus-based questions throughout our time at camp). Three of the girls jumped up and served themselves, then passed the pan to the other five at the table. Fair enough.
Table 2: Another all girl group, but one that is much more introspective and somewhat shy--except when it came to CatchPhrase or Charades type games. They waited until their leader served herself first, and then passed the pan around in a patient and lady-like manner.
Table 3: A group of all boys (this was the table I was sitting at for this meal). We nominated one guy to divide the pie/cookie evenly and then passed our plates around so he could serve onto all the plates in an organized and centralized manner. (Mom, you'd'a been proud!)
Table 4: Another group of all boys (have you guessed that they sat with their small groups most of the time?) that are kind of my favorites in this story, but only because it happened at camp. Their adult leader, a kind of grandfatherly figure to most of these boys, stood up to serve and promptly got elbowed out of the way as the boys descended like vultures on the pie/cookie. I laughed so hard other tables around the cafeteria looked at me. These boys had no idea.
Table 5: Finally, a small table of girls, 5 people in total. After passing the dish around to each person and eating their fill, they brought the whole rest of the pie/cookie, still covered with a thick slab of slowly melting ice cream, over to the boys' table where I was sitting. Awesome. Bribery with baked goods goes a long way.
So what does my mother have to do with this whole story? Well, I confided in my table of boys that my mom used to be a professional baker when I was a child. Even in spite of the pie/cookie swimming in ice cream, you could see these boys' mouths water even more, images of endless pies, huge cookies, and layer cakes dancing in their imaginations. One of the guys told me that his mom never baked, another said that they rarely sit down together and eat, and yet another young man, the group leader, reported that he hasn't shared a meal with his parents in years.
My mother (and my dad and my sister and myself and my cousins and my uncles and aunts and my grandmother) all still cook for their family, friends, and even for strangers. I can't help but wonder what life would have looked like if I hadn't grown up in the kitchen, around the table, or even doing dishes. Going out to eat is often delicious, but there is something even about a simple pasta dish at home that makes the whole meal experience more meaningful for me.
Thanksgiving is a month away from today. I will not be spending Thanksgiving with my family. I will be missing my niece's first birthday celebration (which will have incredible food, I'm sure). The next time I'll eat with my family will be two months from now, at Christmas. Last Christmas was the last time I shared a meal with my grandfather, my Papa.
Regardless of where, when, how or how often you eat with people you love, find a time, sooner rather than later. Eat a huge cookie covered in ice cream, eat a slice of pumpkin pie, go out for dinner, make brunch together, meet someone for a cup of coffee, find someway to nourish your body and nourish your relationships. That's what my mom did, that's what my family does, and here's my promise to you: I will eat with you as soon as we can find a time. Until then, the Peace of God and a Piece of Pie be with you.
This weekend I was leading a group of high school students and their small group leaders on a weekend retreat at a resort camp in north-ish western Minnesota. There were something like 250 high schoolers (we were not the only group, thank goodness) and upwards of 300 people total. Well, y'know, mealtimes are shared times, so I was able to sit and eat with all the youth and adults I brought, and a few others. The meals were not your typical camp meals; they were actually house-made, not pulled out of a freezer or unloaded, ready to eat, from a huge truck. That being said, the food wasn't as good as my family's Bed and Breakfast (that's a comment into the future, you just wait), though it certainly was tasty and I heard very little complaining from a group of students that can lend themselves to be a bit complain-y.
At the Saturday evening meal, dessert was served. Each table (up to eight people per table) was gifted with a nine inch pie pan in which lay a freshly baked nine inch chocolate chip cookie, topped with a slab (literally a slab--seriously, a slab) of vanilla ice cream. Our group was spread over five tables. Let me describe each of their reactions:
Table 1: An all girl group that seemed just as interested in the opposite gender as anything else we did all weekend (though to be fair, they really did ask and engage in some tough Jesus-based questions throughout our time at camp). Three of the girls jumped up and served themselves, then passed the pan to the other five at the table. Fair enough.
Table 2: Another all girl group, but one that is much more introspective and somewhat shy--except when it came to CatchPhrase or Charades type games. They waited until their leader served herself first, and then passed the pan around in a patient and lady-like manner.
Table 3: A group of all boys (this was the table I was sitting at for this meal). We nominated one guy to divide the pie/cookie evenly and then passed our plates around so he could serve onto all the plates in an organized and centralized manner. (Mom, you'd'a been proud!)
Table 4: Another group of all boys (have you guessed that they sat with their small groups most of the time?) that are kind of my favorites in this story, but only because it happened at camp. Their adult leader, a kind of grandfatherly figure to most of these boys, stood up to serve and promptly got elbowed out of the way as the boys descended like vultures on the pie/cookie. I laughed so hard other tables around the cafeteria looked at me. These boys had no idea.
Table 5: Finally, a small table of girls, 5 people in total. After passing the dish around to each person and eating their fill, they brought the whole rest of the pie/cookie, still covered with a thick slab of slowly melting ice cream, over to the boys' table where I was sitting. Awesome. Bribery with baked goods goes a long way.
So what does my mother have to do with this whole story? Well, I confided in my table of boys that my mom used to be a professional baker when I was a child. Even in spite of the pie/cookie swimming in ice cream, you could see these boys' mouths water even more, images of endless pies, huge cookies, and layer cakes dancing in their imaginations. One of the guys told me that his mom never baked, another said that they rarely sit down together and eat, and yet another young man, the group leader, reported that he hasn't shared a meal with his parents in years.
My mother (and my dad and my sister and myself and my cousins and my uncles and aunts and my grandmother) all still cook for their family, friends, and even for strangers. I can't help but wonder what life would have looked like if I hadn't grown up in the kitchen, around the table, or even doing dishes. Going out to eat is often delicious, but there is something even about a simple pasta dish at home that makes the whole meal experience more meaningful for me.
Thanksgiving is a month away from today. I will not be spending Thanksgiving with my family. I will be missing my niece's first birthday celebration (which will have incredible food, I'm sure). The next time I'll eat with my family will be two months from now, at Christmas. Last Christmas was the last time I shared a meal with my grandfather, my Papa.
Regardless of where, when, how or how often you eat with people you love, find a time, sooner rather than later. Eat a huge cookie covered in ice cream, eat a slice of pumpkin pie, go out for dinner, make brunch together, meet someone for a cup of coffee, find someway to nourish your body and nourish your relationships. That's what my mom did, that's what my family does, and here's my promise to you: I will eat with you as soon as we can find a time. Until then, the Peace of God and a Piece of Pie be with you.
Friday, October 14, 2011
My Favorite Letter...
F.
Often when I'm alone in the morning I get to thinking about random and somewhat silly things. This morning, for example, I slept in (it's my day off, doncha know!) and was trying to decide what to do for breakfast. Bacon, eggs with tomatoes and mushrooms, and toast won out, and win it certainly did! But while my bacon was frying, I started thinking about what my favorite letter might be. The worst thing is, this isn't the first time I've had this question in my mind. But I think this is the first I've written about it...
The letter F. Here is a list of the words and phrases (not frases) that mean a lot to me:
Food (!) including Fried, Filleted, newly Found, and absolutely Fantastic
Friends and Family
Faith and Fellowship
Fair Fare
trying things for the First time
having Fun and being Funny (or at least trying to)
Flying to see people I love
Favorite things (can I be more vague?)
Fridays!
Note that in this short list is not laundry. Today is laundry day for me, and I don't particularly care for it. Vacuuming is also not on this list; I don't like vacuuming either. (Mother, stop laughing!)
So what's the point of this post? Is it to attempt alliteration in all acceptable and available activities? Well, that was part of it. Another piece is that I just wanted to write something.
It all comes back to...what? What, pray tell, does it all come back to? Does it all come back to the alphabet? To playing favorites? To starting my weekend on Friday?
It all comes back to needing a place to be heard, in spite of the randomness and awkwardness of how my brain works. It all comes back to the fact that I start blogging and a few months in stop. It all comes back to the fact that so many of my family and friends have told me that I'm a good writer; I'd rather not lose the ability to write. It all comes back to thinking back, remembering, context, understanding the present in light of the past. Someway, somehow, it all comes back.
The Empire Strikes Back. Voldemort came back. Winter is coming back. Jesus is coming back. I wish past friends and family would come back, and some day they will. I hope in the future that things, people, peace will come back.
The title of this blog is a statement. It is a hope. It is a promise. And this blog has begun to ramble too much.
What is your favorite letter?
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